It’s been 20 days, and I have been going on my portal every
weekday ever since the Feb 1 application deadline. I hate this waiting! There
are so many things in my life right now that depend on whether I get in or not,
that makes it really hard to be patient. I’m the kind of person who needs
a plan. Now, I’m a very adaptive person and can change plans as life happens
and plays little tricks on you, but I need a plan.
So now, I’m obsessing about making two plans. One, for in
case I do get in, and one for in case I don’t. I get so excited whenever I do
make plans for in case I get in that it becomes hard to have a path laid out
for in case I don’t. Some of the things on my mind right now are: if I don’t
get in should I take any courses over the summer? Should I take Anatomy and
Physiology through an online university such as Athabasca and get ahead on the
game, lightening the load for when I eventually get in? A&P is one of the
courses that scare me the most. I don’t have any Biology (I only took
Chemistry) and memorization is not one of my strengths (actually, I’m awful at
it). Ok, let’s be honest, I suck at it! Maybe if I don’t get in I should just
take high school biology.
As you can see I have only really been
busy making plans for in case I don’t get in. I guess since I have been
planning on applying for a long time, “the if I get in options” have
already been exhausted. However, not getting in is new because I just applied.
Now the fear of what to do if I don’t get in is sinking in. I know, I know…. If
I get in, if I don’t get in, if I get in, if I don’t get in….. I’m getting sick
of hearing it myself and so are the people around me. That is why I decided to
write this blog, so other people who are not sick of it can hear some. Ok, I’m
just going to my portal check one more time. Just in case… you never know.
Then, I’ll go check the mail. Maybe they have mailed the letter before they had
a chance to update the portal. Yikes!!
