OMG!

I was not overreacting! OMG! I can now say that I have survived the first week of nursing school. Many factors contributed for this being a particularly hard week. First I started the week completely sleep deprived. I was so excited the night before that I couldn’t fall asleep. My Fibromyalgia was in full gear after my last HepB shot, which had only been 5 days before. I had been throwing up as a reaction and was able to eat hardly anything during that week.

Here are some of the challenges I experienced:

•   started the week sleep deprived

•   level 8 pain form fibromyalgia induced by vaccination

•   vomiting and unable to eat due to vaccination reaction

•   lots of problems creating accounts and logging in to all the online books and courses

•   hours on the phone with technical support

•   elementary school strike and lack of plan B childcare

•   kid with strep throat, high fever, rash and unable to eat

•   kid with lice

•   missed an intire 3 hour lecture because the college messed up my schedule

•   stress trying at catch up missed class

•   lots and lots of homework

•   my business partner away on vacation (me taking over)

So, here I am questioning how long I’m going to last. The thought of enduring this for the next 16 months without a break makes me feel my life is over. I guess I could try to see in a different light. I could say this IS my new life. I feel like I have developed a new personality. My life as a full-time student is very different to my life at home and it feels like I have a double personality. I know this sounds crazy and maybe it is just part of my adaptation to this completely foreign experience.

Tomorrow is the day!

Tomorrow it the day! My first day of nursing school. Up until now I have been extremely excited and confident about starting the program. Now that I’m a day away and not months, I’m starting to get really nervous. What if I can’t manage? What is it going to be like? Am I going to go crazy trying to manage school, house and kids? I have been in a cleaning frenzy. I have organized the basement, closets, toys, pantry etc... I feel I have to have everything up to scratch or I will get overwhelmed. It’s kind of like preparing for a storm. I don’t know what is going to hit me. I sure hope I’m overreacting.

I have already picked my schedule. We had blocks of ready made schedules to pick from. The one I chose gives me the Mondays off. Tuesday is lab all day, Wednesday is placements all day and Thursday and Friday is classes. I like the idea of having the one day a week off. My schedule will require a little shifting of my husbands work hours as some of the days I start at 8:30 and the younger kids don’t take the school bus until 8:45. This means he will get to work late and will get back home late in the evening. So after a whole day at school (and probably homework and assignments) I will have to cook dinner, do all the driving around and help the kids with homework. Then I’ll have to study and manage a shower just to start all over the next day.

So with that in mind and the wondering of what to expect I doubt I’ll get any sleep tonight. That on top of waking up everyday after 10 AM I know I will be half dead as I come home tomorrow. But I still can’t wait.