Thursday, July 4, 2013

My First Semester Schedule & a Little Reflection




Something that I really wish I were able to find when I was researching which midwifery school to apply to, and mostly make the decision between full-time versus part-time programs, was a first year schedule. Part of the reason I’m writing this blog is to encourage those of you who are contemplating the MEP and hopefully my experiences may inspire you to follow your dream and make the right choice for you. 

For a longtime, I had convinced myself that being a midwife was out of my reality and would never happen. Sometimes I wonder if it were a way of me to protect myself from that longing of being a midwife when it was so far away from my reach. Conversely, I had moments where I knew deep down that someday I would be a midwife. I wish I had freed myself of our society pre-set milestones.  I mean, the ones that tell us that we are too old to do something, like going back to school at age 40. The ones that tell you to have it all at the same time, or you will run out of time. I wish our society were more focused on patience. In the age of drive thru fast foods, texting, tweeting, high-speed Internet and microwave dinners, we are losing a very important virtue. Patience. I remember once sitting down with 10-years worth of calendars in front of me, and planning my motherhood and midwifery career.  I remember dotting in how many more kids I wanted to have, the gap I wanted between them, when I possibly could start the program, how old the children would be then, how old I would be when finished the program… CRAZY!! There was this sense of rush that everything had to be achieved in a time frame. A very short time frame. Where did I get that concept from? Who knows? My upbringing maybe, however I have a very strong feeling its out there in our culture. It was insane of me to think that I could plan life like that. In a calendar! There is nothing wrong with a little planning, but there are so many things that are out of our control. What if I didn’t get pregnant when I wanted, what if I had a child with a disability, or lost a child, what if I got chronically ill, didn’t get in the program… So many things can happen. I still am a planner as you may have noticed from previous posts, but I have learned to accept life as it happens and to adapt to whatever circumstances I found myself in. My point in telling this story is to illustrate how easily we can get trapped in the concept that certain things should happen at certain times in our lives and when they don’t we may convince ourselves that is too late. It is never too late to follow your dream. With that message being said I will go back to the initial intention of this post, which was to share my first semester schedule.


Weekday
Time
Course
Monday

12:30 - 15:30
Working Across Differences
Tuesday
13:30 - 14:30
A & P Lecture

15:30 - 16:30
A & P Tutorial

17:30 - 18:30
A & P Tutorial

19:00 - 21:00
Indigenous Studies
Wednesday
13:00 - 16:00
Midwifery The Profession
Thursday
9:30 - 11:30
A & P Lab

12:30 - 13:30
A & P Lecture
Friday
9:00 - 12:00
Life Sciences Lecture

13:00 - 15:00
Life Sciences Lab




In this blog, I will try to share as many details about the program as well as my adventures through it so you can be better educated, prepared and hopefully encouraged to make the right choices for you.




Monday, July 1, 2013

Time is going by fast!





Time is going by fast! I just want to make this summer last forever. The feeling of knowing that I have been accepted to the MEP but not struggling through it yet is sweet. I can not believe it’s July already. I have accomplished some of the things in my list of things-to-do before I start the program, but I haven’t done as much A&P as I had hoped. There is something that has been consuming my mind that I haven’t mentioned before. It’s my business Mother Matters. I have not mentioned it here before on purpose because I didn’t want to involve business in this blog, however, my business is part of my journey and since this blog is about my journey it wouldn’t be complete if I excluded it.

With that in mind, I will reflect on what is bothering me. What to do with the business is what is bothering me. I can’t manage the business and be in school full-time. I just can’t, and I know that. (period) When I started the nursing program, my business partner took over 100% of the business management. Now she got accepted to the MEP too and will also be starting full-time school in September. That leaves us with a problem. Who will take care of the business? We tried to sell, but this is a hard thing to accomplish because our type of business requires a very specific buyer. Also, there is a lot of emotional attachment along with our good reputation, which makes it hard to put a value on. We contemplated closing it, but we just couldn’t do it.  So we were left with no choice but to keep it. But how? This question has been constantly on my mind. At the moment we are training people to continue the work and have hired an administrator to run it while we are in school. Is it going to work? I don’t know. I really don’t know. I don’t want to be stressed out about it when I’m in school. I want to give all my time and attention to the program and my family as I know it will be hard enough to juggle those two areas of my life without the added stress of overlooking a business.

Nevertheless, the decision has been made. Even though we are keeping the business there are many changes happening that are stressful. I always find transitions hard. I find it often requires you to close a chapter to start a new one, and I keep reminding myself to not keep looking back. Take what you learned from your experiences and look forward to where you are heading. If we were closing the business it would be easier for me to take this approach but because we are carrying on (but not really), it doesn’t give me the closure I need.

Now I have 8 weeks to settle the business into its new phase. On my last post I mentioned getting my family and myself academically ready for the program, but I’m starting to think that I also need to start getting ready emotionally as well. I will need to emotionally let go of my business, which colored the last 10 years of my life, and focus on my dream. Becoming a Midwife. Isn’t it what this blog is all about?