Time is going by fast!

Time is going by fast! I just want to make this summer last forever. The feeling of knowing that I have been accepted to the MEP but not struggling through it yet is sweet. I can not believe it’s July already. I have accomplished some of the things in my list of things-to-do before I start the program, but I haven’t done as much A&P as I had hoped. There is something that has been consuming my mind that I haven’t mentioned before. It’s my business Mother Matters. I have not mentioned it here before on purpose because I didn’t want to involve business in this blog, however, my business is part of my journey and since this blog is about my journey it wouldn’t be complete if I excluded it.

With that in mind, I will reflect on what is bothering me. What to do with the business is what is bothering me. I can’t manage the business and be in school full-time. I just can’t, and I know that. (period) When I started the nursing program, my business partner took over 100% of the business management. Now she got accepted to the MEP too and will also be starting full-time school in September. That leaves us with a problem. Who will take care of the business? We tried to sell, but this is a hard thing to accomplish because our type of business requires a very specific buyer. Also, there is a lot of emotional attachment along with our good reputation, which makes it hard to put a value on. We contemplated closing it, but we just couldn’t do it.  So we were left with no choice but to keep it. But how? This question has been constantly on my mind. At the moment we are training people to continue the work and have hired an administrator to run it while we are in school. Is it going to work? I don’t know. I really don’t know. I don’t want to be stressed out about it when I’m in school. I want to give all my time and attention to the program and my family as I know it will be hard enough to juggle those two areas of my life without the added stress of overlooking a business.


Nevertheless, the decision has been made. Even though we are keeping the business there are many changes happening that are stressful. I always find transitions hard. I find it often requires you to close a chapter to start a new one, and I keep reminding myself to not keep looking back. Take what you learned from your experiences and look forward to where you are heading. If we were closing the business it would be easier for me to take this approach but because we are carrying on (but not really), it doesn’t give me the closure I need.

Now I have 8 weeks to settle the business into its new phase. On my last post I mentioned getting my family and myself academically ready for the program, but I’m starting to think that I also need to start getting ready emotionally as well. I will need to emotionally let go of my business, which colored the last 10 years of my life, and focus on my dream. Becoming a Midwife. Isn’t it what this blog is all about?