Going insane!

I’m going absolutely insane waiting to find out if I will get an interview. The worst part is I know a bunch of other people already have heard their answer. I belong to this yahoo site for Ryerson applicants and we all chat and encourage each other there, however, many members have already received their answer since Monday March 19 and as of today Wednesday March 21 I still haven’t heard mine. My husband keeps encouraging me and saying I will get it and that no news is good news. I disagree!! No news is NO news. Deep inside me I know I will get an interview but my insecurity keeps crawling in and saying, “what if you don’t get in, what if this is a test of your commitment and determination to becoming a midwife”. I keep hearing this voice in my head, one time saying, “have faith, you will get it. Just believe in yourself”, and other times saying, “it’s out of your control, so just relax”, and yet other times saying, “what makes you think you will get one? So many people are applying for the 3^rd or  4^th time, what makes you think you will get one on your first try?” This is insanity!! I can’t take this no more…..

Second stage!

Hurray! On March 5^th I got my acknowledgment letter from Ryerson stating that I have officially passed to the second stage of the application process.  This means they are going to read my personal essay letter. This is so exciting because I had applied with a mid-term mark for Chemistry and I was a little worried that it would be a problem. I know tons of kids on high school apply to universities with mid-term marks, but I feel the midwifery program is so full of exceptions and I had also applied as a mature student that I was a little worried. So, now the wait continues to see if I’m actually getting an interview. Other applicants are saying that we probably won’t hear until the end of March. I guess this process takes so long to test our patience ability. Just like we will have to be patient when women are giving birth, I guess.