Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Going insane!


I’m going absolutely insane waiting to find out if I will get an interview. The worst part is I know a bunch of other people already have heard their answer. I belong to this yahoo site for Ryerson applicants and we all chat and encourage each other there, however, many members have already received their answer since Monday March 19 and as of today Wednesday March 21 I still haven’t heard mine. My husband keeps encouraging me and saying I will get it and that no news is good news. I disagree!! No news is NO news. Deep inside me I know I will get an interview but my insecurity keeps crawling in and saying, “what if you don’t get in, what if this is a test of your commitment and determination to becoming a midwife”. I keep hearing this voice in my head, one time saying, “have faith, you will get it. Just believe in yourself”, and other times saying, “it’s out of your control, so just relax”, and yet other times saying, “what makes you think you will get one? So many people are applying for the 3rd or  4th time, what makes you think you will get one on your first try?” This is insanity!! I can’t take this no more…..

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